I want you to know this

I want you to know this

I want you to know there is a heart out there bigger than you ever dreamt of

A soul waiting to meet yours

A mind that knows you like no one else

I want you to know that you deserve to be happy

That all the heartache and sleepless nights are worth it

I want you to know that it may be unsuspecting

Like a cool breeze on a balmy night

Surprising yet welcome

I want you to know the feeling is like a hug

An embrace you’ve known for years

Even if you only met once

But most importantly

I want you to know that this person exists

In so much more than words on a page

And when you find this person

Treasure them hard

Because it’s a rare thing to find

This wasn’t the plan

This wasn’t the plan

It’s been a long time

Since I liked someone

Let alone someone

Like you

A most unexpected feeling

You aren’t what I look for

But maybe what I was looking for

Was wrong all along?

I’m on the precipice

Now wondering what to do

A feeling of limbo

Should I, Shouldn’t I

Yet the thought of not having you

Is perhaps scarier than having you

The truth is, I feel so wholly accepted by you

Understood

And isn’t that what we all want?

To be understood

And to understand in equal parts

I guess what I’m trying to say is this

I don’t want to mess it up

But I also don’t want to jump

Because I’m unsure

And that’s a bad thing right?

So here I am

In a state of wonder

Weighing up the risk and reward

A deer in headlights

A night owl still

Where do I go from here?

Magical eyes

Magical eyes

What tales they tell

Looking into abyss

Lost and found all at once

Magical eyes

What tales they tell

Visions only one can dream

Serene and golden

All at once

Magical eyes

What tales they tell

Looking searching wandering

In hope of something that can’t be found

Oh, those magical eyes

Tell me so much more

Than words ever could

Found you out

And I’m so glad

That I found you out

Before I fell too fast

(It was already happening)

Found out that me wanting you

was me not wanting to lose you

Putting you on a pedestal

Imagining you next to me

But truth be told

I won’t go chasing anymore

Because I know the love I deserve

And it isn’t the one where I’m waiting

It’s the one where they are ready

Just friends

I don’t care if I romanticise it all in my head

Imagine you speaking to me in a certain way

Looking at me like I was the best thing that ever happened to you

Romanticism is almost as good as reality

Actually it’s probably better

(You don’t need a therapist to tell you that excitement fades after a year)

So even if I can’t bring myself to tell you

And I act like we’re just friends

Even though I wonder if you may like me too

(Because I always see this flicker in your face each time we meet)

Well I’m going to leave it now

And instead take joy in the most beautiful stories I create in my mind

Wondering if one day, one day

they might come true