You’ll never know the secrets
of a woman’s heart
the inner nuances and whispers
that never fail to lie
oh, to think we are simple creatures!
Gentle
I will let the dust settle
take gentle steps
choose each other
all over again
because that is what love is
it is a choice
I will let the dust settle
stop trying to control the outcome
because that is what love is
something you cannot force
I will let the dust settle
and see whether another chapter
lies in store for us
and what that might look like
I will let the dust settle
Where do we go from here?
You say these things
Then expect me to be normal
after throwing daggers at me
all at once
Can’t you see?
I am emotionally bruised
you’ve knocked me down, so far down,
I worry I won’t come back again
Where do we go from here?
Self soothe
The thing is
I’m pretty good at being alone
Prefer a bed to my own
The quiet calm of just one self
A soothing remedy
From everything else
My needs
And it was then that I realised
I can’t change myself to make you happy
I can’t keep focusing on you
Pushing you
To be the man I want you to be
You don’t realise what you have
Perhaps you never have?
Perhaps you’ll only know when it’s gone?
But I’m tired
tired of pushing
it’s time to put my needs first
to put me first
Shelter
When I’m with you
I don’t have to pretend
I can leave the chaos, the anger, the rush
of the outside world
and just be
You are my shelter, my home, my safety
Imperfect perfect
When you accept me at my worst
that’s when I know we could be onto something
You love me for all my parts, the good and the bad
And every time you choose me
I choose you back much harder