I recommend you read about love

I am sorry

But you will never know

How to love

Or what the word truly means

Now I’m out of it

I see how much more

I deserved

And how little capacity

You had in you to love

Always shying away from

The feeling, word, idea

Was it too much for you?

Did it (I) scare you?

And just like that

Like the poker player

Who draws a card one day

Hoping to win,

You drew a card that day

Hoping to escape

But instead you lost it all

You lost love

And so it goes

Good luck

Not that I’m bitter just…

I can’t help but think

You want the 1950’s housewife

The type who’ll clean and cook for you

Perhaps that’s the first introduction

To women, you ever had?

*

But times have changed

It’s 2022

You liked the idea of me in theory

But the reality showed up all the parts

Of you that I didn’t need

Of course you felt in my shadow

Did I make you feel small?

I’m sorry, I always do

You wish to seek a person more meek

Have all the children in the world

Come home to a meal cooked…

*

But baby, I know you

I know you’ll always feel dissatisfied

I know you’ll want the easy life

And one day it’ll hit you

And you’ll wonder, was it all really worth it?

Is this all really worth it?

*

And as you try to sleep - oh to sleep! - you’ll try

to resist the urge to think of me

And how maybe, it would have been okay

Your life would have been different

*

And you cannot help but see me there

A haunting yet enigmatic spectre

Smiling as I recite my favourite quote

And we plan our next adventure together

“Though she be but little, she is fierce”